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Old 08-29-2017, 07:48 AM
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Anustart
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Join Date: Oct 2015
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If I start, I won't stop. I know that. In my mind I try to rationalize, "Well, it's my birthday on the 16th. I can allow myself a drink then," or, "My anniversary is on the 25th. I can drink just that one day every year." But I know better. I do.

I'm trying to eat healthier and I'm working on a viable alternative to my work schedule now. Sleep deprivation isn't helping matters. Exercise has gone out the door. Gotta find a way to change that. Maybe these things will help, maybe not. I don't know.

It's just hard. My marriage isn't on the rocks because of alcohol, but alcohol didn't help. Quitting is the one good thing to come out of this mess... but the AV just keeps whispering how good a nice ltitle bender would be.

I'm fighting it with all I got. All I got.
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