Originally Posted by
wildflower70 
I don't know what else to do at this very moment, but ask for help and forgiveness.
You have done the very best thing that you could do, you asked for help. Forgiveness is not needed, we are all human beings and flawed. What you did was not done maliciously, so no apologies necessary to anyone here.
Learn from this experience and take it to heart. Remember exactly what and how you feel at this moment. File it away, but keep it readily accessible. Use it as a valuable tool in the future so that you never have to feel this way again. Also, use your experience to help others.