First Day of Sobriety: Enough is enough
Hi,
I am here with the hopes of once and for all getting sober. Day 1 ( working on a terrible hangover after a bad binge last night)
I feel shame and embarrasment after the way I behaved last night while heavily intoxicated.
It seems to be a form of self sabotage.
( binge drinking and anxiety)
The biggest striggle I am having tonight is being able to relax. Lots of anxiety.... also my mind believes that no drinking = no social events. I realize I have been using alcohol to self medicate and help me get through social engagements.
I started meditating daily ( 6 plus months)
and am going to begin a Chi Gong class to also help with anxiety.
I honestly thought I had a grip on the booze...
90 percent of the time I drink I'm able to monitor my booze consumption BUT 10 percent of the time I end up in bad place.
To really recover means one can socialize, etc.. booze free while feeling relaxed etc..
feeling a bit intimidated by a commitment to get sober but after last nights episode: Enough is enough.