Originally Posted by
sunshine72 
At least you are thinking about it and you have found this place. Once the pain of using outweighs the pleasure you will be ready to put it to rest. Sounds like you aren't quite there yet...
Although I agree that I'm not quite there yet I find your words of wisdom very easy to relate too. I realise that when I've spent all my money and start feeling down about myself I'm able to find the motivation for temporary abstinence and moderation, the problem is when I pull myself back out of the hole I lose that willpower and the self destructive cycle starts again. I have been through just a few of these cycles and need to learn to stick to a plan when times are good, I guess that's the hardest part for me at the moment.