I have gotten a lot from reading your posts! ****{Mummy****** Hugs to you! It's not a surprise to me when people go out - I have a couple of times. As I have shared, almost 10 yrs... What DOES surprise me is when people come back so fast and brush themselves off instead of giving into the "well I've done it now - maybe I can control it this time!" Proud of you for your humility and strength and hope you can forgive yourself and realize what it really means for you to be here instead of God only knows where. Doesn't disqualify or negate any of the awesome posts from the past and I will continue to listen to you and pray for you!