I had pretty bad panic attacks throughout the night/early morning last night/today. I even had a freaking fan blowing on me from 3ft away thinking to myself; "You should get up and point that another direction for your allergies"...I just laid there and stared at the fan..crippled! I'm sure this is what led to my thoughts of a drink today. I do have some possible medical stuff coming too and a bad breakup that I'm still processing ,so I know that was part of it. I actually have thought I was going crazy today. Even driving two miles to my meeting I had the feeling of 'doom'. I just try and take it like my drinking/codie habits. One day at a time. Hang in there and seek face to face treatment if possible.