All your problems with alcohol and cocaine will stop if you never consume either ever again. Yeah?
Consuming them involves problems, so the plan is to try and have only the right kind of problems ? Doesn't sound like a good plan.
Isn't cocaine possession illegal where you are? Going to prison even just for moderate use doesn't sound like a rational risk, let alone the biological consequences which would make incarceration pale in comparison, figuring out a way to include those risks in your life in a moderate fashion? Doesn't sound very rational.
Enjoying that buzz is powerful, yeah? But is it worth it, i.e. rational?
15 years post school , so pushing close to forty, yeah? Cocaine use is dangerous for a twenty year old heart and vascular system, let alone a 'conditioned' one.