Welcome to SR, well you've taken a good first step. You might be out of ideas, but there will be many people that come along and provide you with more ideas and different approaches to sobriety. The one I can tell you with certainty is that your life for yourself and your family will be immeasurably better if you live a sober life. First things first though, you need to sober up and get healthy again. You sounds a bit depressed. You have the power within you to make the change. If not, there is no shame in seeking treatment to save your life.