Hi Mummy;
I've been reading your threads since you joined and found them very inspiring and helpful--
especially the way you share stories and reach out so kindly to others.
I think most of us have had the experience you just went through--going back
after some great sober time and then beating ourselves up for it.
I know I did, several times. In fact, I had nearly two years when I blew it the last time.
I felt terrible, but vowed to learn from what happened and modify my plan for when I felt triggered to drink.
Most importantly, I realized that last time that drinking had nothing good to offer me or my family.
Just regret, pain, and guilt for a fleeting (and increasingly short) euphoria.
I revised my plan, made a committment to myself, and now and I have almost two years sober yet again.
The first sober time I had accumulated made it easier to get here this time.
My whole outlook on life has changed.
I now see myself as a sober person, not a drinker waiting to fall off the wagon.
The same will be true for you.
You can do this. Do it for you, and for your kids.
My mother was never able to stop, and that tainted my whole childhood
and frankly was the role model for my own adulthood.
You and your family deserve better.
You haven't let anyone down.
You are here posting and you haven't quit quitting.
That's a win in my book
