Mummy.
Noone old you this would be easy. It is not. Especially at the start. BUT...
hang on....
BUT
It does get easier with time. You just need to push past this first bit of shitness. Why?? Well, you know what it at stake better than we do.
I want you to play to tape forward now - that means imagine you drink now. What happens NEXT. And next. And next?
What happens to your name-sakes? What happens to your dignity. Your self-respect? You have too much to lose.
Check those HALT Triggers.... are you Hungry? Angry? Lonely? Tired?
I'm betting at least one is the case. Probably two.
Deal with those things first, then in an hour or so see how ya feel.
These cravings are so intense at the start it feels like they'll never pass - but they truly do.
Hang in there. You CANdo this. I'be known grandmothers to come to AA to get sober and manage it. They had YEARS on you.
Come on lady. You CAN do this.
xx