Originally Posted by
wildflower70
I sincerely felt that I was in recovery, and now I'm not sure...
You came to SR a binge drinker, you said. I'm going to assume that meant you cycled through periods of not drinking followed by episodes of heavy consumption. If that pattern continues, is it recovery? Wanting to be sober is extending the periods where you aren't drinking, but certain events drive you back to drinking. Recovery will shore up your ability to cope with life without resorting to alcohol.
So what are you doing in your periods of not drinking to deal with your alcoholism?