Hi addictedToBeer8,
I'm new and on day 4 of not drinking. I feel that if you keep trying hard enough then one time it will stick. You sound like you have been trying as have I. Each time we fail we learn something that helps move us forward the next time. It's the first time I have used a forum like this and now have my own experiences to draw on but also everyone else's. That's a lot of tools in your sobriety toolbox. Good luck and keep in touch. This is the time!