I think there's a lot of hope for you
Like I said tho you need to make different decisions.
Dumping out the booze right now would be a great decision
You ran out of money with your last pay - at least go shopping so you can put food on the table now. No need to hit the bottlo - just the Coles or Woolies or whatever.
One AA meeting is great but it's not enough for real change.
I'd commit to going regularly (another reason to budget so you can put fuel in the car) and maybe even think about those Steps - I mean what have you got to lose but your misery?
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