Thank you everyone who has replied your advice is brilliant. It's so good to have these forums to come on to. I'm not craving weirdly I'm ok in that sense I think my new job has me so run off my feet I'm not given the chance to which I suppose is a godsend. Right now I can't think of one positive reason to drink. It took too much from me to ever go there again. The weight is just an issue for me. I am going to join my local gym and see how it goes. The quicker I get back to 'normal' what ever that is the better. But one thing is for sure. I will never go back there again. I am going to treat my body with respect now and be the mammy I should have always been to my children.