I look at what my father has become and I don't want to turn into that. I want to be a good mother, a good wife, I want to be happy. And I realize that I am poisoning my body with alcohol. It isnt "fun"....
I've wanted to quit drinking for the past two years or so and havent been successful any of the five or so times I have tried. My blackouts have been occurring frequently
Dec 2016 I attacked a family member in a blackout.
July 2017 I screamed at my husband in the middle of the night for no reason, waking up my boys and their friend sleeping over and terrified them all
August 2017 Woke up to a bloody kitchen, covered in bruises and unable to walk
I am so done. I am not "giving up" anything. I am choosing health, happiness and peace over poison....