Originally Posted by
Andagain 
At around 3am I went to the bathroom and caught myself in the mirror, I looked into my bloodshot eyes and I heard my av voice, the one that is usually so kind as long as I feed it say "I f*****g hate you, I want you to die".
This gave me goosebumps.
Late one evening I came out of a blackout to the voice of my addiction telling me to kill myself. In the following weeks I realized that I had been committing a passive suicide of sorts. I decided that I should either kill myself properly, or start living again.
And so, I'm here
