Thank you all for your kind words, they have helped.
Dec- No matter how sad I get today it is my solemn promise i will NOT drink. Another 24 and I'm sticking to that.
Herc - Idk if it's PMS...very well could be. I didn't get a lot of sleep last night and when I'm tired my emotions tend to run high, this is just an amplified version. I didn't even consider the eclipse, that's a very good point.
Mum - You're so sweet, thank you.
Your support makes all the difference.