Advice on dealing with bad days and relapses?
I had 11 days off drinking and was feeling pretty good about it. And then day 12 came around. Crappy day at work, come home and find my husband has been drinking and the house is a mess so I said **** it and started drinking myself. :And then of course I continued on day 13 and day 14. scorebad WHY? I'm so mad at myself. Starting over on day 1 again. I feel like your spouse should be there to support you but instead mine seems like he's my trigger. It's not his fault I should be able to handle this. I know I have a problem and I admit it but the thought of going to AA literally brings me to tears.
How do you all handle this? How do you handle the crappy days? What do you tell yourself when you come home and think '**** it', how do you turn it around?
I've seen people post that you need to go easier on yourself after a relapse, but how do you train yourself to do that?