Struggling to visualise an end to this.
Hi all,
I have lurked on this forum for quite a while, trying to pick up on the wisdom and really really admire so many of you.
Am worried my addiction has got so bad that there's no coming back from it. I stop then can't handle the withdrawal and start again. I read the stats about how many people can actually kick this awful disease and know most likely I'm ******- oops don't know if you can swear here.
Am thinking now there must be a point where it gets so bad you can't come back from it. Maybe if I'd succeeded in stopping earlier there would be more hope.
You would think you could stop when considering your loved ones at the very least - but I still carry on like the selfish addict I am.
Was there any specific moment in your recovery where it really clicked? I have tried for periods and gone back. I so want to be there but I think maybe I'm too far gone and it's so scary. Is it possible to be past the point of help? Because I feel I'm there.