Originally Posted by
Seren 
You haven't done anything to deserve it, Chilled. What you do deserve is a chance, a chance to get real help and live the best life you can. I may not understand exactly how you are feeling, but I do feel the fear in your writing.
Please keep talking it out!
I also on top of the OCD suffer with PTSD which I've had a long time, I somehow managed it with alcohol and the symptoms weren't that bad in comparison to now.....but then the booze stopped working and the anxiety just pushed through the booze so I knew I had to stop.
It's all just gotten soooooo much worse in such a short time and totally knocked me out!