Have not read anyones posts since a bit back as this move is horrendous. I'm going to post "19th Nervous Breakdown" and tell Mick he's got nothin' on me, I've given up counting.
My son has turned into double d/head and I can't 'win' whichever way I turn. If I'm here he abuses me, and if I'm leaving he does the same.
Learned from my daughter this morning that my former husband, my son's father, described my son as having a "vendetta" against me. Even he can see it, and he wouldn't go out of his way for me normally. It is almost pathological.
Feeling really washed out, exhausted, anxious, tremulous. BUT
thank God for sobriety so I can work towards the prize slowly and methodically. I am a Nobender and I will not be defeated.
They don't make girls like us for nothin'. Hey, girls?
He didn't even ask me what it was like.
Must go as in the middle, but wanted to check in as you guys are so important to me. Even typing this has helped to calm me because I know I am talking with people who understand and care. I love you all so much.