sweetichick - time to examine your own behavior. you willingly hopped in the car to go to a BAR and wait for friends. friends who "don't know" about your drinking problem. you drank and then went home and drank more.
but when it comes to getting in the car to go to a meeting, you waffle....um, well gee, maybe.......
i'm not sure what you thought you would accomplish by "talking" to the predatory across the street neighbor. it was unwise at best. but again you waited hours for him to arrive.
i hope you can gain some clarity and put alcohol and anyone associated with alcohol out of your life.