[I]No. but I walked away from God and shouted at Him got angry towards my brothers and sisters in Christ and listened to seriously bad music etc [/I]
Oh have I been there. Shouted at God. Swore at him. Screamed at him. Ripped up bibles. Rued the very day I was born. Over and over again I railed against Him and let Him have it every chance I got. But you know what? He's God. I think He can handle it. Anger is a part of being human. So is not being able to see a bigger picture. Personally, I'm not afraid of being honest with God. If I can't be honest with Him who can I be? I imagine He saw me as a spiritually immature child throwing a tantrum, just like I used to watch my own children do. If a small child tells their parent they hate them, does the parent take them seriously and sever the relationship and kick them out of the house? No? Then I think you have your answer. Grace is bigger and stronger than anything we throw at it.