Are your neighbors paying your rent? Probably not, so let them talk it will sizzle down. You did give them a good reason to gossip. Been there done that. The shame is good for you actually. Because we don't stop drinking until the pain of drinking outweighs the pleasure. And it is painful to have folks talking bad about you. So essentially they are helping. Make a plan, join class of August 2017 and stay close to this site. Like multiple times per day. Good Luck