My 16th AA Meeting
This one creeped me out.
It was a newcomers meeting. About 20 folks.
3 or 4 folks under one months sober. All were relapsed.
Big book, steps, miracles.
It was really cultish. If I was a newcomer, I would be scared.
I love AA, I need the f2f.
I spoke and told the group that, and that I don't have a sponser.
I told them I haven't been drunk in 26 months and that I am healing still.
I still crave and that I use online methods to stay clean. I spoke of dopamine, adrenaline, and endorphins. The science of sobriety.
I did it w the intent of giving folks that cronicly relapse some idea of what is going on in their head. To strengthen their chances of staying clean.
Helping them helps me.
Thanks.