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Old 08-06-2017, 07:12 AM
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Shutterbug1
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thank you racingthouhts!

I cannot even imagine smoking right now...but a few times I had the thought "well maybe occasionally in the future" but I don't know. I just feel too afraid to smoke right now, and I think it would be really hard for me to lose the fear after this experience. I want to be clear for a LONG time, I spent so much time smoking and the clarity feels better.

I definitely feel like this is a wake up call to move towards a more fulfilling existence. I had never told my therapist about the weed, I wasn't ready. But I think that the work we did, prepared me to be strong enough to get through this and "lift the veil" so that we can really get into the next phase of healing. I have a lot of trauma to unpack. Even though this experience felt so bad, I think it actually is incredibly good for me.

Thank you everyone for your support through this
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