What I like about being here in SR
is that there are so many folks, all
walks of like, different stages of recovery,
but are all here for many reasons looking
for help, suggestions, guidance, healthier,
effective solutions to problems in life
that baffle us.
SR is one of many lifelines we can use
to our own advantage to helping us
achieve health, happiness, and overcome
many other obstacles in life.
I read your post earlier before walking
away for a moment to pull myself together
for the day having sometime to reflect
on what you wrote.
This coming Friday I will be sober a
many one days at a time collected together
to reach 27 yrs sobriety.
27 yrs is just a number yet it is a miracle
and an accomplishment due to continued
daily maintenance on myself and daily life.
I know that my sobriety birthday is
a few days away, but I cant focus on
that, because I have learned to live
in today. Friday is down the way but
anything can happen between today
and then. I mean, I pray nothing does,
but then, I have no control over what
happens in the future.
Anyway, staying sober each day is
a continuing learning process on
myself and life. Which got me to
thinking. If I got sober a many number
of yrs ago and slipped today, id have
to ask myself, what caused me to slip
and take that drink.
Were there some under lying issues
from the past that I did not address
or work thru to resolve? Are there
lessons I should have learned long
ago but haven't yet? Maybe I just
don't want to change them thinking
they wont hurt anyone else and yet
my selfishness and dishonesty has
kept me sick all these yrs later.
Yep, I have to continually check for
character defects, fears, dishonesty,
etc that would keep me mentally, emotionally,
spiritually sick but today I have that
guideline of recovery taught to me
yrs ago to help me avoid slipping back
to old behavior or even picking up a
drink.
Just because I'm not drinking any longer
doesn't mean I'm cured of this aweful,
dangerous disease of addiction. Sure,
I put it to sleep yrs ago, but to pick up
a single drink, would awaken that horrible
monster that remains alive. Yes, its been
asleep or dormant for a long time but it
continues to grow. Meaning after all these
yrs, if awoken it wont be an infant but will
have had 27 yrs of growing and developing
waiting patiently to be awoken and wage its
wrath and strength on me and those who
come in contact with it.
Today, I refuse to want to face that
demon and the only way to keep it
in its place is to simply live life with
the tools, knowledge and guideline
of a recovery program taught to me
and learned over the past 27 yrs.
No, I'm not thru learning because I
will remain teachable with willingness
and an open mind to live life with purpose
accountability and meaning.
You can too.
