Welcome to the SR community, SN. A supportive place. It is a GREAT thing to have an awareness of having a problem with alcohol so young and starting to do something about it. Early days...if you (like me) are a heavy drinker, I suggest you see a doc. about the detox/with-d phase. I had seizures- and it can be unsafe. A plan for recovery is a good idea- as is one the ground support with a counsellor and meetings and posting here daily (for me). Empathy and support to you. Keep posting- especially when you do not want to- this place, like meetings is what that is all about. PJ