You don't have to say you are an alcoholic silly. Just say no thanks, I'll have a Coke please. It's no ones damn business. No job, person, or situation is worth going back to square one. And the last time I checked I've never heard of anyone getting fired for not drinking. I however have lost many jobs because of my behavior when I drink at work events. Yep... This girl and happy hours at work do not mix. Sounds like you are not at peace with who you are. Well be proud and have no shame in taking control of your life. xo