congrats on 102 days.
i know now I have never been normal drinker. and never will be. Even when I started as a teen I drank abnormally but just thought I was fun and life and soul of the party.
don't do what I did and start up again. I had 3.5 years and picked up again last year. it really isn't worth it. It doesn't matter how much I WANT to drink normally or wish I could. the fact is I can't.