Husband went back to his home in Laos for a week, which happens every month due to VISA runs, which actually works good for us. Having breaks from each other is always good for a relationship, plus he gets to hang out with his family and friends for a week in his home village, which is obviously quite a bit different than the city life.
Nonetheless, that means it's just me and the dogs for another week. Can't really go anywhere as I went blind about 1.05 months ago. I can meander around to the local shops by myself, but for the most part am stuck at home, which is fine as well, as I have loads of work to do.
Staying strong and sober though. I can't really forsee myself drinking while he's gone, and I'm pretty sure I'm fine. I'm pretty content sober, and definitely hit rock bottom a couple times over in the recent past. That was enough for a wake up call, it got me straightened out, and I'm back to living with a new found ambition for work and becoming successful again.
I'm back in that mindset where I have loads to do, and want it all done last week, so I know full well no drinking allowed. Obviously it's on my mind though, or else I wouldn't be posting here.
No cravings or anything, but you don't drink 1L of whiskey everyday for 16 years then just forget about it.
Besides, I know full well what would happen with that first drink. The whole week is gone, and my honey shows up to a hung over husband, stinking like alcohol, dishes piled up in the sink maybe with some new maggots as friends, back to being low on money, etc. Nah... think I'll just stick with green tea, have my honey come back in a week to a smiling and sober husband, while I tell him, "hey honey, made an extra $3000 while you were gone! let's go to your favorite restaurant for a treat!". Yeah, that sounds much better.
heh, can't believe I'm actually staying sober this time, as I used to be such a hopeless case. I'm living proof that if I can do it, then anyone can. Maybe once we're settled into our new home in Chiang Mai, are financially very secure again, and I can sit back and say to myself "I did it", I'll write a short story about my journey to sobriety. Until then, I'm still on that journey and the future remains to be seen.
Thanks for reading, and hope everyone enjoys the upcoming weekend!