Hey Rainy, Consider yourself kicked in the backside!! :-)
Get a hold of yourself talk, you listed all the good things and they are honestly awesome things so throw out the smokes, get back to your healthy sober groove that you've been creating and move ahead. I'm still right with you at 109 days and I've been working on my head trash too. I ran 3.5 miles this morning, I didn't want to, but it made my whole day better! I won't go backwards for anyone or anything. I hope you conquer your blues soon! I always enjoy seeing you on here!! SF