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Hi there,
I'm new to this site. Been alcohol free for a week and wanting the strength to continue. Thought being in contact with others, aiming for the same thing would help. I feel so much better mentally and physically but I'm still drawn to the idea of having a drink and keep picturing a large glass of wine or a cocktail. Socialising for me involves drink, all my friends drink. The lure of a pub on Friday, people chatting, smiling, people in good spirits is powerful and I'm not quite sure how I'm going to break the association with 'good times' socialising and not drinking, it's all I've ever know as an adult.
However, what I hate and I'm well and truly sick of is the hangovers, the shame and disgust at drunken behaviour( I'm a vivacious, first-one-up on the dance floor, flirty, last man standing kind of drunk) in reality, I'm shy, have really low self-esteem and self-worth. My head,when drinking,is constantly fuzzy and my hands a bit shaky, especially when ive had a heavy night. I'm just so over it and want so desperately to break the cycle.Anyway, I won't ramble on anymore...thanks for reading and look forward to reading your stories