I don't think you're unkind in the least. I had the same thoughts that I'm lucky that I had a reason to look into my concerns and learned that I was undoubtedly damaging myself. I wouldn't necessarily say my concerns are emotionally driven. I just read posts that say blood work can be good and yet you still have a big problem and that the only way to know for sure was the aforementioned testing. I do feel better having others reinforce the testing. I almost got to the point of saying the hell with it if I'm going down why stop what I was doing but thankfully through support in the forums I've read here and other sites I never reached that point. I just wanted to know that I wasn't going to die or be sick. I'm slowly starting to believe that now.