I'm glad you made it back here Plenny.
Sadly, a lot don't.
For me the turning point was talking drinking off the table as an option.
No matter what was going on, no matter how I felt, I made the commitment to not try and solve things by drinking.
It wasn't much fun, but then neither was drinking - and I learned that a lot of things I feared might decimate me sober, didn't.
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