Thanks everyone. I am much happier without alcohol. I have been working on projects to keep my mind busy and the cravings are gone now. Going on 5 months dry. It's comforting to see that others have gone through the same thought processes. Now that my mind has cleared some life just seems so much more valuable and I don't want to miss out on it. It's way better sober! I told myself that if I ever reach for a bottle I'm going straight for help however it hasn't been an issue. I just hope I'm not too late. From the sounds of things I'm not so time to make up for lost time I say.