Wildwood

hi all

i didnt want to hijack someone elses thread but it does feel odd starting one.

short history: drinking most of my adult life, around 25 years. knew for a long time i was in trouble but finally managed to quit early 2014. stayed quit for over 2 years but for the last 6 months was heading for and finally did relapse.

i have been drinking with days off since around this time last year and keep tripping at the finality of 'never' and forever'.

reading around these boards, i had used a baby type of AVRT. and now im ready to do it again, but with more insight.

i have read this website, the RR website, ordered the book and made my BP last night.

i had kept thinking, i need to really want it, im not convinced i can do 'forever', even though i need to for this to work. yes, all AV.

I do really want this, IT doesnt.

thanks for reading.