Originally Posted by
sky90 
Thank you Bob4x4... It sucks because before this I had about 8 months and then relapsed...I don't want this to happen again..does this make me a chronic relapser? I don't want this to be a pattern..I don't understand what it is that I am doing wrong...Don't want to be such a downer but it would really help if I can understand why this keeps happening after getting close to a year clean....
Moreover, I may be calling it quits on my current job position and will start looking for a new position...all the free time kind of freaks me out. However, I have been meaning to quit my current position quite for some time... it's just not for me...
sky,
congrats on your 11 months. Unfortunately sometimes relapse is part of the disease. Beating up on yourself will not help.
we always need to remember to forgive ourselves first. Without that, nothing else will matter.
you have done it and you can do it again.
be honest with your therapist and yourself.
my very best to you on this shared path of recovery.