Day 1 after drinking at the wedding.
Not proud. In fact, I absolutely hate that I am on day 1 again.
But it is what it is, and I really do want to BE SOBER and live a totally sober life.
So... I am getting right back up and connecting here.
The temptation today was to hide from SR and my other group, in shame, but I am sure thats how I could easily slide into days upon days of not posting and eventually getting lost in a fog of blurry sobriety intentions.
and then... that leads to ... drunk every other night like I used to do.
I dont want it. I dont want to drink ever again. I dont want drinking to be a part of my life.
It feels bad in my body. No matter how much, or how little, I drink, it doesnt feel good anymore (it only numbs out my anxiety, but its a poor way of handling my anxiety because I dont exactly like how it feels anymore to have alcohol in my system at all anymore).
Thanks.