Originally Posted by
maybemaggie 
So I need a plan for tonight. Normally if I am trying not to drink, I will take benadryl, like 3, with a glass of wine, which knocks me completely out. It seems better than staying up all night swilling wine, and waking up feeling like death, with two small kids to parent all day. I know doing this isn't ideal, but it feels like a step away from alcoholism. Am I fooling myself? Is this just another escape from reality? Or a reasonable first step?
the escape from reality hasnt been working. if it did, you wouldnt have to keep doing it over and over.
something that seems to have worked for me and countless others is facing reality and learning how to live life on lifes terms.
no, it is NOT a reasonable first step,imo. it is an example of insanity.
a reasonable first step would be surrender- admit alcohol has ya licked.
then be willing to do ANYTHING for victory over alcohol- be willing to go to ANY lengths.