when the pain of getting drunk finally exceeded the pain of reality and i was given the gift of desperation, i found my way to AA, got the big book, started reading it, went to meetings, prayed like crazy, started working the program, went to meetings, prayed like crazy, read the big book.....repeated.
and i ceased fighting anyone or anything-even alcohol, for sanity had returned. i was granted a new freedom and new happiness. i comprehended serenity and knew peace. the feelings of uselessness and self pity disappeared. i didnt regret the past nor wished to shut the door on it.my whole attitude and outlook on life changed.
i recovered from alcoholism and loved myself.
and a whole lot more happened for me.