I am about to get dressed and go to the shops to buy wine.
I cannot cope with the anxiety and painful feelings I am experiencing. I literally cannot tolerate these feelings any longer. I am overwhelmed. Maybe I am weak....but I cannot bear the feelings. I just can't. Only a drink will give me relief. Just one. I am visualizing it now. I can only think in the short term at this moment in time. I know I am not being rational, but I think I have already made my mind up
