Dwtbd - I think you're right. I have not separated IT from ME. Maybe that's why I"be struggled so much. IT is a horrible, awful thing. I still see that as ME. Looking back I cannot BELIEVE this is so hard for me to grasp. It seems like many of you fully grasp this concept and it seems to come easily to you (not saying it is by any means). When I am reading here, or in the book it makes sense. But practicing it in real life when a craving or thought hits - I think you're absolutely right. At that point, I am not viewing two separate entities. It's all me and I blame myself 100% for it if I give in to the craving. Which I haven't, but I find myself more "white knuckling" and it doesn't come easy to me to separate IT from ME.