Thanks guys. As I predicted, I came home and we've hardly said 20 words to each other. Now I think I know why my drinking got so bad -- trying to make my time with her bearable. Then it got out of control. I was happy 4 years ago.
Thankfully we do not have children together. But I do need much more sober time to sort things out. My perception could be off because of the emotional adjustments that come with quitting alcohol.
But I do not want a life of silence and separation, especially when I am on the hook financially for her daughter (baby daddy's in prison and can't pay child support), and her mother. I feel unappreciated and taken for granted. I'be been feeling this way for a while, but having some scotch before I got home made things more enjoyable. Bearable.
Well, the upside is I just finished Day 2 and on Day 3. No thanks to the ice queen who is my wife.