((((((hugs))))) I just.... (((((hugs)))))
You are so strong, 4myboys. And I totally understand how you feel. I remember being there and I am so, very sorry that you're feeling so broken and tired. As a RA friend who was one of my supports as I was dealing with AXH used to tell me, "Don't give up 5 minutes before the miracle." Hang in there, 4.