Hey Stewy -
I know you've been struggling.
Isn't time for a change... like Dee said.
Sometimes we need a little help!
Why not make some calls tomorrow and/or call your doctor's office. Get a referral to a rehab center. Very least check out a meeting.
Isn't it time ? .... It's the right thing to do for you and your loved ones.
Take easy tonight.. With a Big glass of water!