Hi Aaly, Welcome and I'm sorry for your situation. It's good that your wife is in rehab and I hope she benefits from it. Have you considered support for yourself through AlAnon in your area? I think it's important to keep the focus on you and your baby.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.