So, if you had married the farmer's daughter, you would have had to deal with the Farmer and the farm and my friend, that ain't easy either. That's why people are leaving the farms in droves. So, no matter what turn we take in life I think we have days when we second guess ourselves.
But, here we are and it's today and look where we're at right NOW. Stay in the present as much as possible. We get it. We all have times of reflection and rummination and it can get us in a funk. But you are here right now and not in a hot tub being wireless with mafia bosses. (at least I hope you're not there). But, seriously, life on the farm can be really really hard and some farmers are just as mean as mafia bosses.