thomas11

I'm not drinking (yet) and I am in a precarious position in my life right now. I have listened to some music and there is a particular song that explains it better than I can. So I will post it below. I know its song lyrics and folks will judge on that. Its just the way I feel and it goes back to 1992 where many of these feelings come from. They were never resolved. It starts with what so many come here for, and that is spouse or boyfriend/girlfriend, but for me, it goes on to how life was in the subsequent years. Brutal. It turned my heart into a lump of coal but I'm trying to become human again. But I have my days.

We all come in from the cold, we come down from the wire
And everybody warms themselves to a different fire
When sometimes we get burned, You'd think sometime we'd learn
The one you love is the one That should take you higher
You ain't got no one You better go back out and find her

Just like children hiding in a closet, Can't tell what's going on outside,
Sometimes we're so far off the beaten track, we'll get taken for a ride,
By a parlor trick or some words of wit, a hidden hand up a sleeve,
To think the one you love could hurt you now is a little hard to believe,
But everybody, darling, sometimes bites the hand that feeds,

When I look around, everybody always brings me down,
Well is it them or me, well I just can't see but there ain't no peace to be found,
But if someone really cared, well they'd take the time to spare,
A moment to try and understand another one's despair,
Remember in this game we call life that no one said it's fair,

I've come to know the cold, I think of it as home,
When there ain't enough of me to go around I'd rather be left alone,