How are you today, Erfra? Thinking of you and pulling for you in this dark time. Your honesty and sincerity are an example to me, even now, while you feel such despair.
I agree with Dee's comments...and am glad you are already in a doctor's care for depression. I bet lack of normal physical activity with your foot broken has contributed to depression.
Please hang in here with us in the SR community. You are a very important voice among us. All your posts on SR are true service to others here.